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   Or has he to gain from me some good so stupendous...
[06/05/2010 4:33 am]
Or has he to gain from me some good so stupendous that my well being is needful to Him? I must find out later onTonight he will not speakEven the offer of a kitten or even a full-grown cat will not tempt him He will only say, "I don't take any stock in catsI have more to think of now, and I can wait After a while I left himThe attendant tells me that he was quiet until just before dawn, and that then he began to get uneasy, and at length violent, until at last he fell into a paroxysm which exhausted him so that he swooned into a sort of comaThree nights has the same thing happened, violent all day then quiet from moonrise to sunriseI wish I could get some clue to the causeIt would almost seem as if there was some influence which came and wentHappy thought! We shall tonight play sane wits against mad onesHe escaped before without our helpTonight he shall escape with itWe shall give him a chance, and have the men ready to follow in case they are required-"The expected always happens How well Disraeli knew lifeOur bird when he found the cage open would not fly, so all our subtle arrangements were for noughtAt any rate, we have proved one thing, that the spells of quietness last a reasonable timeWe shall in future be able to ease his bonds for a few hours each dayI have given orders to the night attendant merely to shut him in the padded room, when once he is quiet, until the hour before sunriseThe poor soul's body will enjoy the relief even if his mind cannot appreciate itHark! The unexpected again! I am calledThe patient has once more escaped-Another night adventureRenfield artfully waited until the attendant was entering the room to inspectThen he dashed out past him and flew down the passageI sent word for the attendants to followAgain he went into the grounds of the deserted house, and we found him in the same place, pressed against the old chapel doorWhen he saw me he became furious, and had not the attendants seized him in time, he would have tried to kill meAs we were holding him a strange thing happenedHe suddenly redoubled his efforts, and then as suddenly grew calmI looked round instinctively, but could see nothingThen I caught the patient's eye and followed it, but could trace nothing as it looked into the moonlight sky, except a big bat, which was flapping its silent and ghostly way to the westBats usually wheel about, but this one seemed to go straight on, as if it knew where it was bound for or had some intention of its own The patient grew calmer every instant, and presently said, "You needn't tie meI shall go quietly!" Without trouble, we came back to the houseI feel there is something ominous in his calm, and shall not forget this night LUCY WESTENRA'S DIARY Hillingham, 24 August-I must imitate Mina, and keep writing things downThen we can have long talks when we do shop meet

   Her cheeks grew pale, and a deep, earnest shadow...
[05/05/2010 5:13 am]
Her cheeks grew pale, and a deep, earnest shadow passed over her eyesShe laid both hands on her bosom, and sighed heavily 1 Edward Bouverie Pusey (1800-1882), champion of the orthodoxy of revealed religion, defender of the Oxford movement, and Regius professor of Hebrew and Canon of Christ Church, Oxford Chapter 19 Miss Ophelia?s Experiences and Opinions Continued ?Tom, you needn?t get me the horsesI don?t want to go,? she said ?Why not, Miss Eva?? ?These things sink into my heart, Tom,? said Eva,??they sink into my heart,? she repeated, earnestly?I don?t want to go;? and she turned from Tom, and went into the house A few days after, another woman came, in old Prue?s place, to bring the rusks; Miss Ophelia was in the kitchen ?Lor!? said Dinah, ?what?s got Prue?? ?Prue isn?t coming any more,? said the woman, mysteriously ?Why not?? said Dinah?she an?t dead, is she?? ?We doesn?t exactly knowShe?s down cellar,? said the woman, glancing at Miss Ophelia After Miss Ophelia had taken the rusks, Dinah followed the woman to the door ?What has got Prue, any how?? she said The woman seemed desirous, yet reluctant, to speak, and answered, in low, mysterious tone ?Well, you mustn?t tell nobody, Prue, she got drunk agin,?and they had her down cellar,?and thar they left her all day,?and I hearn ?em saying that the flies had got to her,?and she?s dead!? Dinah held up her hands, and, turning, saw close by her side the spirit-like form of Evangeline, her large, mystic eyes dilated with horror, and every drop of blood driven from her lips and cheeks ?Lor bless us! Miss Eva?s gwine to faint away! What go us all, to let her har such talk? Her pa?ll be rail mad ?I shan?t faint, Dinah,? said the child, firmly; ?and why shouldn?t I hear it? It an?t so much for me to hear it, as for poor Prue to suffer it ?Lor sakes! it isn?t for sweet, delicate young ladies, like you,?these yer stories isn?t; it?s enough to kill ?em!? Eva sighed again, and walked up stairs with a slow and melancholy step Miss Ophelia anxiously inquired the woman?s storyDinah gave a very garrulous version of it, to which Tom added the particulars which he had drawn from her that morning ?An abominable business,?perfectly horrible!? she exclaimed, as she entered the room where StClare lay reading his paper ?Pray, what iniquity has turned up now?? said he ?What now? why, those folks have whipped Prue to death!? said Miss Ophelia, going on, with great strength of detail, into the story, and enlarging on its most shocking particulars ?I thought it would come to that, some time,? said StClare, going on with his paper ?Thought so!?an?t you going to do anything about it?? said Miss Ophelia?Haven?t you got any selectmen, or anybody, to interfere and look after such matters?? ?It?s commonly supposed that the property interest is a sufficient guard in these casesIf people choose to ruin their own possessions, I don?t know what?s to be doneIt seems the poor creature was a thief and a drunkard; and so there won?t be much hope to get up sympathy for her ?It is perfectly outrageous,?it is horrid, Augustine! It will certainly bring down vengeance upon you ?My dear cousin, I didn?t do it, and I can?t help it; I would, if I couldIf low-minded, brutal people will act like themselves, what am I to do? they have absolute control; they are irresponsible despotsThere would be no use in interfering; there is no law that amounts to anything practically, for such a caseThe best we can do is to shut our eyes and ears, and let it aloneIt?s the only resource left us ?How can you shut your eyes and ears? How can you let such things alone?? ?My dear child, what do you expect? Here is a whole class,?debased, uneducated, indolent, provoking,?put, without any sort of terms or conditions, entirely into the hands of such people as the majority in our world are; people who have neither consideration nor self-control, who haven?t even an enlightened regard to their own interest,?for that?s the case with the largest half of mankindOf course, in a community so organized, what can a man of honorable and humane feelings do, but shut his eyes all he can, and harden his heart? I can?t buy every poor wretch I seeI can?t turn knight-errant, and undertake to redress every individual case of wrong in such a city as shop this

   But, Lord love ye, miss, I ain't afraid of dyin',...
[03/05/2010 8:46 pm]
But, Lord love ye, miss, I ain't afraid of dyin', not a bit, only I don't want to die if I can help itMy time must be nigh at hand now, for I be aud, and a hundred years is too much for any man to expectAnd I'm so nigh it that the Aud Man is already whettin' his scytheYe see, I can't get out o' the habit of caffin' about it all at onceThe chafts will wag as they be used toSome day soon the Angel of Death will sound his trumpet for meBut don't ye dooal an' greet, my deary!"--for he saw that I was crying--"if he should come this very night I'd not refuse to answer his callFor life be, after all, only a waitin' for somethin' else than what we're doin', and death be all that we can rightly depend onBut I'm content, for it's comin' to me, my deary, and comin' quickIt may be comin' while we be lookin' and wonderin'Maybe it's in that wind out over the sea that's bringin' with it loss and wreck, and sore distress, and sad heartsLook! Look!" he cried suddenly"There's something in that wind and in the hoast beyont that sounds, and looks, and tastes, and smells like deathLord, make me answer cheerful, when my call comes!" He held up his arms devoutly, and raised his hatHis mouth moved as though he were prayingAfter a few minutes' silence, he got up, shook hands with me, and blessed me, and said goodbye, and hobbled offIt all touched me, and upset me very much I was glad when the coastguard came along, with his spyglass under his armHe stopped to talk with me, as he always does, but all the time kept looking at a strange ship "I can't make her out," he said"She's a Russian, by the look of herBut she's knocking about in the queerest wayShe doesn't know her mind a bitShe seems to see the storm coming, but can't decide whether to run up north in the open, or to put in hereLook there again! She is steered mighty strangely, for she doesn't mind the hand on the wheel, changes about with every puff of windWe'll hear more of her before this time tomorrow CHAPTER 7 CUTTING FROM "THE DAILYGRAPH", 8 AUGUST (PASTED IN MINA MURRAY'S JOURNAL) From a correspondent One of the greatest and suddenest storms on record has just been experienced here, with results both strange and uniqueThe weather had been somewhat sultry, but not to any degree uncommon in the month of AugustSaturday evening was as fine as was ever known, and the great body of holiday-makers laid out yesterday for visits to Mulgrave Woods, Robin Hood's Bay, Rig Mill, Runswick, Staithes, and the various trips in the neighborhood of WhitbyThe steamers Emma and Scarborough made trips up and down the coast, and there was an unusual amount of 'tripping' both to and from WhitbyThe day was unusually fine till the afternoon, when some of the gossips who frequent the East Cliff churchyard, and from the commanding eminence watch the wide sweep of sea visible to the north and east, called attention to a sudden show of 'mares tails' high in the sky to the northwestThe wind was then blowing from the south-west in the mild degree which in barometrical language is ranked 'No' The coastguard on duty at once made report, and one old fisherman, who for more than half a century has kept watch on weather signs from the East Cliff, foretold in an emphatic manner the coming of a sudden stormThe approach of sunset was so very beautiful, so grand in its masses of splendidly coloured clouds, that there was quite an assemblage on the walk along the cliff in the old churchyard to enjoy the beautyBefore the sun dipped below the black mass of Kettleness, standing boldly athwart the western sky, its downward way was marked by myriad clouds of every sunset colour, flame, purple, pink, green, violet, and all the tints of gold, with here and there masses not large, but of seemingly absolute blackness, in all sorts of shapes, as well outlined as colossal silhouettesThe experience was not lost on the painters, and doubtless some of the sketches of the 'Prelude to the Great Storm' will grace the R More than one captain made up his mind then and there that his 'cobble' or his 'mule', as they term the different classes of boats, would remain in the harbour till the storm had passedThe wind fell away entirely during the evening, and at midnight there was a dead calm, a sultry heat, and that prevailing intensity which, on the approach of thunder, affects persons of a sensitive nature There were but few lights in sight at sea, for even the coasting steamers, which usually hug the shore so closely, kept well to seaward, and but few fishing boats were in shop sight

   Renfield's room, which is somewhere under thisAnd...
[02/05/2010 8:54 pm]
Renfield's room, which is somewhere under thisAnd then there was silence over everything, silence so profound that it startled me, and I got up and looked out of the windowAll was dark and silent, the black shadows thrown by the moonlight seeming full of a silent mystery of their ownNot a thing seemed to be stirring, but all to be grim and fixed as death or fate, so that a thin streak of white mist, that crept with almost imperceptible slowness across the grass towards the house, seemed to have a sentience and a vitality of its ownI think that the digression of my thoughts must have done me good, for when I got back to bed I found a lethargy creeping over meI lay a while, but could not quite sleep, so I got out and looked out of the window againThe mist was spreading, and was now close up to the house, so that I could see it lying thick against the wall, as though it were stealing up to the windowsThe poor man was more loud than ever, and though I could not distinguish a word he said, I could in some way recognize in his tones some passionate entreaty on his partThen there was the sound of a struggle, and I knew that the attendants were dealing with himI was so frightened that I crept into bed, and pulled the clothes over my head, putting my fingers in my earsI was not then a bit sleepy, at least so I thought, but I must have fallen asleep, for except dreams, I do not remember anything until the morning, when Jonathan woke meI think that it took me an effort and a little time to realize where I was, and that it was Jonathan who was bending over meMy dream was very peculiar, and was almost typical of the way that waking thoughts become merged in, or continued in, dreams I thought that I was asleep, and waiting for Jonathan to come backI was very anxious about him, and I was powerless to act, my feet, and my hands, and my brain were weighted, so that nothing could proceed at the usual paceAnd so I slept uneasily and thoughtThen it began to dawn upon me that the air was heavy, and dank, and coldI put back the clothes from my face, and found, to my surprise, that all was dim aroundThe gaslight which I had left lit for Jonathan, but turned down, came only like a tiny red spark through the fog, which had evidently grown thicker and poured into the roomThen it occurred to me that I had shut the window before I had come to bedI would have got out to make certain on the point, but some leaden lethargy seemed to chain my limbs and even my willI lay still and endured, that was allI closed my eyes, but could still see through my eyelids(It is wonderful what tricks our dreams play us, and how conveniently we can imagine The mist grew thicker and thicker and I could see now how it came in, for I could see it like smoke, or with the white energy of boiling water, pouring in, not through the window, but through the joinings of the doorIt got thicker and thicker, till it seemed as if it became concentrated into a sort of pillar of cloud in the room, through the top of which I could see the light of the gas shining like a red eyeThings began to whirl through my brain just as the cloudy column was now whirling in the room, and through it all came the scriptural words "a pillar of cloud by day and of fire by night Was it indeed such spiritual guidance that was coming to me in my sleep? But the pillar was composed of both the day and the night guiding, for the fire was in the red eye, which at the thought got a new fascination for me, till, as I looked, the fire divided, and seemed to shine on me through the fog like two red eyes, such as Lucy told me of in her momentary mental wandering when, on the cliff, the dying sunlight struck the windows of StSuddenly the horror burst upon me that it was thus that Jonathan had seen those awful women growing into reality through the whirling mist in the moonlight, and in my dream I must have fainted, for all became black darknessThe last conscious effort which imagination made was to show me a livid white face bending over me out of the mist I must be careful of such dreams, for they would unseat one's reason if there were too much of themSeward to prescribe something for me which would make me sleep, only that I fear to alarm themSuch a dream at the present time would become woven into their fears for meTonight I shall strive hard to sleep naturallyIf I do not, I shall tomorrow night get them to give me a dose of chloral, that cannot hurt me for once, and it will give me a good night's sleepLast night tired me more than if I had not slept at all 2 October 10 P-Last night I slept, but did not dreamI must have slept soundly, for I was not waked by Jonathan coming to bed, but the sleep has not refreshed me, for today I feel terribly weak and spiritlessI spent all yesterday trying to read, or lying down shop dozing

   Fang secretly rejoiced at this piece of good...
[01/05/2010 8:52 pm]
Fang secretly rejoiced at this piece of good fortune, then sent Ah Lix off with a tip During breakfast those disembarking were in low spiritsSun's eyes were red and swollen and the corners seemed saturated with tears; the y were like the dew on flower petals on a summer morning, and the slightest touch of the finger would cause them to dropMiss Pao noticed there was a new waiter on duty and asked where Ah Lix had gone, but no one answered her Fang asked Miss Pao, "You have a lot of luggageWould you like me to help you off the ship?" In a distant tone of voice she answered, "Thank you There's no need for you to botherLi is coming aboard to meet me Miss Six said, "You can introduce Mr Fang wished he could have crushed every bone in Miss Six's thin body to lime powderMiss Pao ignored Miss Six and, after drinking a glass of milk, rose hurriedly, saying she still hadn't finished packing Heedless of everyone's jesting remarks, Fang put down his glass and followed herMiss Pao didn't even glance around, and when he called her name, she said impatiently, "I'm busyI don't have time to talk with you He did not quite know how to show his angerJust at that moment Ah Lix appeared like a ghost and asked Miss Pao for a tipMiss Pao's eyes ex ploded with sparks as she said, "I tipped you yesterday for waiting on the tableWhat other tip do you want? You don't take care of my cabin Ah Lix silently reached his hand into his pocket and after a long time pulled out a hairpinIt was one of those Miss Pao had flung away the other dayWhile sweeping the floor he had found only one of the three At first Fang wanted to scold Ah Lix, but seeing how seriously Ah Lix had pulled out this magical object, he couldn't help laughing "You think it's funny?" Miss Pao snapped"If you think it's so funny, you give him some moneyI don't have a cent!" And with that she turned and strode off Afraid that a disgruntled Ah Lix might run his mouth off to DrLi, Fang gave Ah Liu some more money, charging it up to his bad luckFang then went on deck by himself and watched disconsolately as the ship drew up to the Kowloon wharfOther disembarking passengers, both Chinese and non- Chinese, also came upHe hid himself in a corner, not wishing to see Miss PaoOn the wharf, policemen, porters, and hotel agents who had come to greet passengers were clamoring noisily; a group of people were waving handkerchiefs at the ship or gesticulatingLi was among them and wanted a closer look at himFinally, the gangplank was lowered, and after the immigration procedures were completed, friends of departing passengers swarmed aboardMiss Pao rushed into the arms of a balding, dark, 24 pudgy man in big glassesSo this was the fiance he was supposed to resemble! He looked like that? Well, of all the insults! Now he understood everythingThat remark of hers was nothing but a "come-on Up to this time he had been quite pleased with himself, thinking she had taken a liking to himWho would have thought that having been tricked and made use of by her, he was even being secretly ridiculed by herWhat was there to say except that adage, which was so old it had grown a long white beard and so stale it was moldy: "Women are the most dreadful of all!" As he was leaning against the railing and thus lost in thought, Miss Six's soft voice unexpectedly came from behind him, "Are you staying on board daydreaming, MrFang? Some body has gone and left you! You have no one to keep you company!" He turned around and saw Miss Six dressed with elegance and shop charm

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